I Know He Loves Me

These past few days have been difficult to say the least, but I stand in awe at all the love the Lord has shown me through this trial. My heart still aches, but I can not imagine the pain I would be in without the wonderful people in my life. I wouldn't know where to start in thanking people or letting them know how much their love has meant to me.

Friday night Jamie was a dream. I had no idea where to go or what to do but found myself at her house. She sat with me and listened to me cry and ramble on and was such a support! She immediately thought I needed to eat anything we could think of. She ordered my favorite appetizer and entree from Olive Garden (at 10:30 at night) and stopped to get the best Oreo shake on the way home. Who ever said comfort food doesn't work, hasn't talked to Jamie.

Saturday Shannon truly saved my life. She came and kidnapped me just before ten and get me distracted and entertained for the next 32 hours. Our day was full of shopping, food, massages (yes, a massage, isn't she the best?), fun times in the car, and a night of games and meeting new people. I was so far from being myself and everyone I met was so nice to put up with me being such a downer. (Another highlight of my day Saturday was a sincere text, yes a text, from my Mom. It was just what I needed and so unexpected. Why are mom's so good at that kind of thing?)

Sunday Shannon time continued with two different BYU wards (yes, I went to church at BYU, can you believe it?) and yet another ward in Holiday for Brandt's homecoming. This was the first time I had seen my sisters and mom and I can not describe their love for me. Each one of them showed such concern and compassion on me that I couldn't help but feel loved.

The highlight of my Sunday was a Father's Blessing from my dad. I was so grateful for the things he spoke, he addressed things I had concerns about and gave me insight and hope for the future. I am so amazed at the power of the Priesthood and all the blessing that come with it. I am so grateful for my dad being worthy to give me a blessing and for the inspiration of the blessing.

Today I called in sick and made the most of my day off of work. I filled my day with time with Jamie again. She was so nice to entertain me again and be there to buoy me up. I had another experience tonight that magnified the Lord's love for me as my prayers, and well as the things spoken in my blessing, were fulfilled. I don't know why I ever stand amazed that my prayers are answered, but I am amazed every time at the love the Lord shows me.

"Operation Cheer up Jill" is on for tomorrow night at Chili's. My sisters are always so available and ready to be a support and be there for me. I really am lucky to have my sisters as my best friends, could there be anything better?

From Shannon to my sisters to my mom to my dad, the Lord has poured out his love to me through these people the past several days. I can not thank any one of you enough or truly express my gratitude. I know the Lord is aware of me and the condition of my heart, he has taken extra precautions to show me.