Random Musings

The month of January always seems to be a bit of let down after the hustle and bustle of it's preceding months. I have seemed to welcome the calm of January this year but still have that dejected feeling that comes from the New Year Lull. As such, my blogging content seems to be just as forlorn as the season we find ourselves in. So for now, you just get my Random Musings.

• You know when you get news of something and you are happy and excited for the person, but that selfish and/or sensitive part inside of you is secretly sad? That's happened a couple times recently and I don't think I'm very good at disguising the latter.
• While sticking to my weight lose program at my club house, among three other patrons averaging the age of 50, I was forced to endure 20 minutes of channel surfing before the woman controlling the remote settled on "Sabrina the Teenage Witch." Really?
• I bowled my highest score in quite sometime tonight, bowling a 125.
• Relationships seem to be a never ending learning process for me. I know that is probably due to the nature of them, but I feel with all relationships in my life (boys, friends, family, co-workers, etc) I just never seem to get them quite right. I am constantly needing to re-evaluate my role in them, adjust my expectations, re-defining them, etc.
  
• Monday marks the end of my three week Hell at work. We will finally be fully staffed and I will no longer have to feel the weight of the Consumer Lending World on my shoulders. It hasn't been pretty and I probably owe many of my co-workers an apology for my awful attitude lately.
• My Christmas decor has been taken down and packed up and now my house slightly resembles a prison cell. The bare walls and monochromatic color scheme are getting a bit boring.
  
• Along with the New Year has come shopping for a new ward. Ashlee, Brooke, and myself are on the prowl for our next singles ward destination. Wish us luck, we are in need of a good one.
• No matter how much I work on my self-confidence, it always seems to solidify my positive self-image when someone else confirms things for me (so much for being self reliant for my self-confidence).
  
• 2010 is going to be a good year for me. 2009 is going to be tough to beat, but I have a feeling that this year is going to be even better.
• I like when I do something (usually rather small and menial) and I can say something to the effect of "That's the best I've done all year!" Not sure why, but I like it.

That's it for now. I'm sure you are all wishing you could get the last 5 minutes of your life back, but there you have it.