So this is me. Jill Jensen: 23 years old, graduated from college, about to buy my first house, and wondering how I got here.
I’ve always looked forward to milestone in my life and thought I would never get there:- Turning 16
- Graduating high school
- Moving away for college
- Graduating college
- Buying a house
- Getting married
- Having kids
I have been surprised how these things have just kind of happened. I keep moving forward in life and once I hit a milestone, I look back and fathom how I even got there.
I am not where I thought I would be at age 23 or what position I thought I would be in while buying my first house. Throughout the whole process of buying my house I have had constant reminders that I am doing this alone (and it is a big burden to carry independently). I think most girls (especially of the Utah Mormon decent) hit those moments, days, weeks, months, maybe years, of wondering if not being married and not having kids is an automatic indication of failure. I am the first to admit that I have had those feelings at times and wonder when it will be my turn. I guess, I have hit my moments lately of thinking that despite my many accomplishments, I still need to lose my “single” status to be successful.
I may not be where I thought I would be, but I can’t look at it as a failure. I have experienced so much since high school and grown to be who I am today. I know that I will be a better wife and mother some day because of them (being a live in nanny of sorts for 5 years might help a bit). I have had my share of up and downs, and while I hated the pain of the downs, I know I have grown the most because of them.
My mom has always told me, “happiness is learning to be happy in the stage you are at in life.“ There are days I wish I could go back to the carefree days of childhood and times I wish I could fast forward to being married, but I know I need to make the best of where I am right now. So even though my life not be going according to plan, things are turning out pretty good. Life continues to surprise me and although sometimes I just want time to stop, I am excited about the things that await me.
4 comments:
Amen, sister!
I thought being a nanny has made you not want to have kids??? ;)
I think you are blessed with the life you have. You have had so many opportunites and done so many things that others don't even get to consider in their life. And it is very okay to be 23 and not married. Very okay.
Very excited about your house. It will be fun to help move you in next week!!! Although I will probably be doing it with tears in my eyes...
If you think being unmarried at 23 is old, then I was a freaking old maid when I got married. I personally think you'll just get better with age, and marriage will come when the time is right. Don't you just hate hearing that? But it's still true.
You're Wonder Woman. You've already done so much with life and whoever gets you will be getting the catch of his life.
I'm with Jamie on this one! I was almost 26 for pete's sake! You have the rest of your life to be married and have kids--enjoy what you're doing now! (easier said than done, I know) When the right one comes along you'll know it and appreciate it SO much more! Love you!
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