The Lucky One

Today was one of those days. 

Yep. I can't really pinpoint why, but I am pretty sure I can blame it on being pregnant. I've heard about pregnancy emotions, but man - once the tears turn on there is no turning them off. I've probably cried for a good 2 hours in the last 24 hours (and that is taking into account that I slept for 8 of those hours). 

side note: I am going to make a little injection here that I think crying has honestly been one of the first and only side effects of pregnancy I have experienced. I don't know why I am been so lucky, but I have been shocked at the ease of this pregnancy. I should probably knock on wood, thank my lucky stars, or whatever else I can think of to keep this luck going. I honestly have felt so blessed and can only hope it continues.

But back to my day...

Despite the pit of despair I randomly found myself in I kind of realized that I am pretty lucky. Amid a barrage of emails and texts to Cam and complaining that I wish I could have just called in sick, that things were different, or that I could just get a grip - he responded with encouraging/understanding words and when I told him I just wish I could see him, he sent me this:

A way to see him (and yes, his beard is really getting that long - I love my mountain man).

Not only does he do sweet things like that that catch me off guard and make me smile, he just gets me. He knows how to love me, when to console me, when to tell me to let things go, when to just go with my crazy emotions, and what to say to make me feel validated and understood but also help me see the more rational side of things.

I basically think he is pretty great.

As I had this great revelation of the great husband I have - there was a very different conversation going on at work. It was much to the effect of how marriage is "death" and how "free" you are not being married - even some of the married people agreed - meaning they must face such sad things in their marriage. I listened in and just wanted to scream at how wrong they all are. I know marriage isn't perfect and it for sure has it's ups and downs, but I have never been happier than I have been being married. It made me so sad to hear that people can feel that way about their spouse - what an awful way to go through life.

This conversation just further cemented what I already knew - I hit the jackpot. I found Cameron who is perfect for me. I felt even more lucky that despite my bad day I got to turn to my best friend/love of my life and find such comfort there.

So regardless of my "one of those" days - I have found some comfort in coming home, curling up on the couch and being perfectly content that I have a great husband, an overly easy pregnancy, and I know that everything is going to be alright.

I ended up being the lucky one today.